Bleh..

Once again, my lack of recording what's been going on in my life daily has been dominating me. I will write more, more to come, i should say, more to come...

Flipping Phones

I've been lazy and sick. My reasons for not blogging for a day. I know it's no big deal, since nobody views my blog, but to me, i feel like when i look back on this, i won't be able to remember what happened on November 25,2008. Maybe that day actually meant something. I saw Twilight for the second time with new people. I met this interesting lady who was an obsessive twilighter, who was angry that the shelfs in the Cullen Household weren't yellow. I find that strange. I could connect to who though. She seemed obsesssed. I spent most of today playing the emo game. It sounds stupid, but it was actually a really amusing game, yet really inappropriate. The only reason i played it, was because Adam Lazzara, from Taking Back Sunday was in it. I love Taking Back Sunday. Also, Jesse Lacely, from Brand New was in it, and i haven't heard a lot from them, but they're really good. I learned that "Seventy times 7", by them was about TBS's guitarist, John Nolan at the time. He cheated on Jesse's girlfriend, and he quit the band, and started a rival band. They toured together, i think they're friends again. My friend was sick with a bug, so this morning, i texted her in the shower. Bad, bad idea. My phone was drenched and it didn't turn on. I let it dry off for a good 12 hours, then i tried it again, and to my suprise, it worked. When i was at the movies, i felt so naked, without my phone. It sounds strange but it's true. Tommorow, Thanksgiving. I didn't eat much, saving for that turkey. But, for breakfast, i made chocolate pancakes, from a blender. I flipped them too. A lot of baking spray was required. I forgot to spray one of the pancakes, so it wouldn't flip. I was moving the pan back and forth and nothing. I had to scrap it with the spatula. They were really good pancakes though. Why am I talking about drenched phones and chocolate chip pancakes, i have no clue. Today was pretty random, it was also my best friends birthday. It's funny, i feel like a 11-year-old boy going through puberty, voice wise. My voice keeps cracking because i'm sick.

Silent Sleep

This is the first time i'm using that widget off of igoogle to write this blog post, i just wrote a really long post, and then the paged just freaking refreshed. Now, i have to start from scratch again. I just can't wake-up. I've tried really really hard, i just can't do it. I don't know where i got the genes to have poor insomnia as well. I can't sleep in cars, planes, boats, basically anything moving. It takes me long enough to fall asleep. Yesterday, I set my alarm for 6:25 a.m. and i told myself i was going to wake-up. I wake up at 7:30. I didn't even hear my alarm go off. I was mad and tired. My dad comes into my room, trying to pull me out of bed. I'm lazy and sleep. I barely had lunch, i didn't even have breakfast. Today, i ate: a poptart and a rice crispie treat for lunch and a strudel for when i got home. I usually don't eat that much, so i'm okay, a little ditzy, but that's normal. I didn't speak at all at lunch. I was trying to prove to my friend that i do indeed have the will-power, to shut-up. I never realized how much i talk. I don't even hear what i say half the time. I don't even remember what i say. Anyway, it was hilarious because during lunch, there were moments of awkward silence. It was because i wasn't talking, i really do need to learn when to shut-up, but i have so much to say, just no audience who will listen to me :(

Little Bugs

Good Morning World. Right here in New England it's windy and chilly. Breakfast always adds an extra dose of pep to my day. Last night, as you can see, i made a banner using picnik. I love that site, I'm not a solicitor, but it's fun to play with. I like blogger, i like getting thoughts and things out of my head, but here are a few things that are bothering me about blogger:

1. It counts yourself, in your profile views. [i wish i was able to see the people who checking my profile]
2. I wish Blogger had more templates
3. More Fonts
4. Slightly confusion to use [well for me]
5. More gadgets, many have errors
6. Recently posted column
   

If I used my head more, i could of added some more problems, but no website is perfect. Nothing is that legit to be without bugs. Is anyone noticing those things to, or am i crazy? or do i look at things too much and i need to get a life? It's the weekend, i need to get my head screwed on right, before the school week, good bye for now.

Twilight From My Perspective

Yesterday, i saw Twilight. On a scale of 1-10, i would give it a 6.5. It's okay. Not the best movie i've seen, but definitely not the worst. Most girls who love the series, would rate it high, but it's probably just for Edward Cullen. He did look really cute, but without the make-up, in person, he doesn't look that attractive. They also left a lot out of the movie. Like the blood-typing scene, when Edward carries Bella to the nurse. The whole movie needed more duration, or time. It took a good twenty minutes, for Bella and Edward to fall in love. That's too fast. Obviously, you can't fit a 500 paged book perfectly into a movie, but the movie was lacking. Eric Yorkie, wasn't suppose to go to the prom with Angela Weber. Angela was suppose to go with Ben, i'm not sure why that was inaccurate. And the ending, what the heck? What was up with Victoria watching Bella and Edward dance from a window and then stroll down the stairs, does this mean they'll be a New Moon movie. I heard the writers were waiting from an audience respone to make another movie, this movie was big, atleast from the theater i went to, it was very busy. Overall, Twilight was a fair movie. I think that if they made it longer, than the movie could have improved. I wonder how New Moon will turn out though. I loved how in Twilight, Stephenie Meyer was an extra. What do you think of Twilight the Movie?

Confusion?

Today was blahish. A forgettable school day that will decay and fade in like a week. It's been said a trillion times, but i miss my camera. I'm not one when it comes to complainer, but I'm only human [i have my moments] I could rant on about pointless stuff and just generally stupid things that will wash-over in a week. I hate keeping everything locked up inside for so long and then you explode out of your own anger. That's why i have a blogger. Without this my mind would be jammed with thoughts that i could never get out. Nobody listens to me anyway, I'm just another student that makes up the total student body. My opinion doesn't matter. Anyway, i feel really forgotten. My friends talk to me, but were having this party for my selfless friend and i feel jealous. Yes, she really does truly deserve that party, but the process in which the party is being made, i feel forgotten, but i don't' want to cry for attention. That would just be pathetic. I wish i had a party, but i know that's not going to happen, I'm not that selfless. I do care about others, but i care about myself, but i wouldn't indulge myself. I'm not like those girls at school who are really self-conscious either. That just drives me nuts. But, what am i going to do? I can't change how annoying people could be, but if they are all normal and ordinary and clones, that would bother me as well. I have really random thoughts, things that aren't on topic. But, being on topic is boring, everything is way too predictable, as Marilyn Monroe says, it's better to be completely ridiculous than absolutely boring. M.M. is right. I rather be "out there" than just another waste of space. I'm not like the average teenager in some ways. I love photography. Just taking pictures is something i really like to do. I have a flickr account, but ever since i dropped my camera, i haven't been able to update it. It's been driving me nuts? Has anyone ever walked down the street or been in the car, and there comes this moment when you see an amazing Kodak moment. It just happens. No explanation. And then when you try to find your camera to capture this moment for forever it's gone. Now the lovely imaged is only lodged in your brain, which will forget about what you've just witnessed in a week, due to your attention span and things changing. I hate that feeling. I wish i could just go back in time. But, life doesn't have a flying car like Back To The Future. Which sucks.

Spark In The Dark

Today was actually okay. On my math test, i got an 83. That's not bad, but not my best. I think i will survive this year. I'm surprised that one of the most smartest girls i know, got a 66. I watched "The Notebook" and it was amazing. That movie is so sad, and i was tearing a bit. Check it out, Rachel McAdam's stars in it along with Ryan Gosling. I feel like I'm fading though. My friends talk to me, but it's like I'm temporary invisible, then i come back from the fog. They walk in the hallways along with me trudging behind. Has that ever happened to anyone here? It sucks, a lot. I'm watching TV, along with writing this post, and an 8-year-old killed his father, well isn't that nice? That's just lovely. Why would you hurt your own father? Well, i don't understand life from the eight-year-old's p.o.v. but that's still disturbing. Christmas is coming! I remember when my sister told me that Santa Clause wasn't real, i was 8, i think. I didn't believe her, but it made me curious. The next Christmas, "Santa" left a note, i compared it to my dad's handwriting, and it was a match. I felt like a minor detective, putting the clues in pieces. My dad never denied that it was his handwriting, but it was really obvious. I haven't seen my dad in a week. I wonder what he's up to. He should be home tomorrow. Tomorrow, Twilight is out! I'm so excited, i haven't bought tickets in advance, but I'm going to the midnight show. I hope Stephenie Meyer finishes Midnight Sun eventually. She's a really good author. Now, the news is talking about energy drinks. Many students drink them. My opinion, disgusting, sugar-loaded crap. Enviga, is my favorite iced tea drink, but it has 5 calories and barely any sugar. I've been bored, so I'm adding a new song that describes my day, or just because i really like it daily, so check it out! More to come...
I miss my camera a lot, i took this about a month ago, my street looks exactly the same...

White Noise

I miss my camera. I dropped my lovely Sony 10mp hd camera when it fell from it's tripod. That was a week ago. For this past school weekend, I've been sleep walking, or so it feels. I never had a full 10 hours of sleep, an average 6 hours, which isn't that healthy. Today in school, i had to finish a test for math. And guess who was behind me? Nicole. Let me tell you about this girl named Nicole. We were friends two years ago. Then she forgot about me and my other friends, and went to take her seat next to "popular" people. I don't hate her that much, but from the glares she gives me, it feels like she doesn't like me that much. I actually feel sorry for her, as crazy as it sounds. She's not doing well in school, and cares too much about how she looks. She is a pretty girl, but is learning the wrong way. She's failing Spanish, and I'm skipping a grade in Spanish. I care a lot about my academic performance and she doesn't. She needs a wake-up call. Anyway, while i was finishing my test, it turns out i didn't have time, so I'm getting an automatic 12 point deduction. After i heard that, i felt nauseous. I was going to be sick. I missed half of my lunch period. I had barely anything for breakfast and nothing for lunch. I wanted to cry. As pathetic as it sounds, i care a lot about school, i want high levels. I don't care how i look while I'm at school, it's not a fashion contest, as everyone thinks it is. All the rumors and gossip, are just there out of boredom, pathetic, but somehow amusing to people. It's really sad what has become of our public schools in America, but the students have basically no power, so i have to suck it up. I want my camera back, to capture the beauty that's forgotten. Every one's forgetting what's around us, myspace is brainwashing, my reasons for deleting mine. If it's for contacting people, that's different. I just....don't know. I never did. I wish i did. Tomorrow my fate in high school math in middle school will come, here comes the nausea. More to come...



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via FoxyTunes

Smiled

My mother always tells me to use positive energy. I mock her so called "methods of happiness". Today i was very positive for her delight, and it turned out great. Some people in school still look down on me *cough,cough* a girl named Nicole, she never liked me, the best way to deal with people is to be kind, no matter how mean they are, just kill them with kindness. Now my first official post is complete.My Dog Lucy: She is Quite a smiler